Ridget Jone's Diary

---- 4pm ----

What a screwed up carnival with screwed up people. Virtually hopeless. Made too many fruitless calls to ever believe fruits will fall. Too lazy to check my grades for general elective taken in last holidays. Dunno how tutor would react to my confessions in short story. If check and din get A would feel utterly wasted.

---- 4.10pm ----

Think i fell into semi-conscious sleep. Chinese New Year. New short skirt. Carnival. Stalls. Vendors. Flop. Flop. Flop.

---- 5pm ----

Darn phone rings. Must be sissy brother's sissy friend kenneth, no kerrick. Keep thinking its kenneth coz it sounds more sissy than kerrick. Unplugged the wire socket so that phone stops ringing without having to tell sissy boy brother is sleeping. Do not even feel bad about it.

---- 5.05pm ----

Retreats back to bed but realized haf lost momentum to return to semi conscious state. ArghhHHHhhhhh swear to remember to unplug phone whenever decides to sleep....

---- 5.20pm ----

Damn i am still conscious?

---- 5.30pm ----

Drag body up, with painful knee (walked and run too much in a week + stupid $2.90 slippers pretty but not comfy). Sulky due to imperfect sista.

---- 5.45pm ----

Missed calls - 1

Hurray!!!! Turkish ice cream Turkish guy Elias decides to join our about-to-flop carnival. Excellent. Except for fact that he asked me to sign contract on CNY. Dumb Turkish man. Elated nonetheless.... msg partner to flaunt results.

---- 6pm ----

Aunty called, buying breadtalk...engages in too much small talk....

---- 6.05pm ----

Checked General elective grades. A! A! A! Have to compose self to break the news to fellow mate who got a B. Am i great or am i awesome? Love tutor.

---- 6.10pm ----

Can't believe two good things actually happened in a row! Maybe disturbed sleep was good afterall. But also shows how not in control i am about feelings of happiness. Its externally controlled by events and entirely up to other people when it ought to and should be coming internally from self. Ooooo, need to build up detatchment system where self happiness is untouchable by external environment. Means to say will be happy even if sky falls down and sun doesnt shine coz i dun have control over sun or sky. But then that also means that must be happy even when life's hopelessly screwed up...like if your head suddenly decides to go blad, or if you boyfren suddenly decides to snog another bitch... hence can see that theory of controlling happiness is totally debatable...

---- 6.40pm ----

Rite. So i wonder who would read this..... =) Habe a qood gay....


p/s: Love short fluffy skirt