T a u t

Its saturday morning and I woke up feelin quite fine. I know the past efforts of people trying to put me in the right track, to make me feel better again. But I think sometimes you reach some place where no one can reach you. And you don't want them to. Until you finally decide to do yourself a favor and realize how its not worth your time. Being angry with the world. The world is what it is.

Anyhow. Chew called me the other day for a pep talk. I thought she was in some kinda trouble and offered my service. Instead...she offered hers. And I think it worked to a certain extent. Did me good. She was hilarious. Its a disgusting trait of mine,but I seek comfort in people's sorrow. Her week was quite horrible. Compared to mine. I dunno why it's even this way, but see. She has about 9 subjects I think and she has school from 8.30 to 5.30 almost all days. And here I am. Pretty Petty Zann. 3 days of school. 3 subjects to screw.

So, first up, her lab report readings which were accumulated painfully for 3 weeks were screwed up by some moron and she couldnt undo the damage. Ofcoz she cried. That was shit. And her tutor wasnt sympathetic. And oooo u know her new stylish house? Ha. Her entire book shelf collasped. She thought her brother was trying to trick her home when he made that emergency call. And her candle jelly thingie from her bf fell down with the shelf and was all over her $160 bean bag. Which incidentally, is her 21st b-day present from her bf and friends. Yoo Hoo. Jelly over bean bag. JELLY BEAN!~! Lol. Aint it frustrating. How life treats you. How you can't possibly do anything within ur power to prevent it. You lose your wallet while shopping. You trip on a banana skin while sashaying. Your computer's attacked by some stupid worm and crashes. It gets alot worse I guess. But I guess its up to u to see the funny side of it. And then along those lines I started thinking abt the worst things that could possibly happen to a person... And then I stop. You dont think that. SHouldn't. =)

It feels like everyone and everything hints happiness when you put your mind to it. Mich said she woke up one morning and told herself its time to be happy. And it worked. Ha. I know. I'm not sure how long I will last this time but for your benefit I'm trying to prolong this.

I'd see the world from a tainted glass
I'd build things and see them last