QUICKY

1. I have a dinner date with my chums tonight at Rice Table. Awesome shit. Am looking forward to a night of meaningless banter.

2. But, I also have a celebration tmr night at Secret Garden. (happens to look like a swelling place as well) This means I will be spending like 40 bucks on food within 2 #&^$*&% days! Thats like 6 movies I could have watched. Damn.

3. Nikko Smith is back on Idol. Man man man. How good can it get!?~ I need to declare that I love him. His color his hair (or lack of) his specs his super low pants his metal necklace the shape of his face his voice his voice HIS VOICE! You know how every season there's one idol that sings to ur soul and thats him for me! Yea...but pray the st00pid americans will so not let him slide....GO YOU!!!!!

4. I was in tutorial class the other day and fear hit me. I've been inconsistent and its creeping up on me. I need a plan and I need to execute it.

So u study to make urself feel better. Get stars on paper. A's on slips. Accolades from people. Ofcoz u don't enjoy it. But u made urself think u do just coz it does make u feel more worthy, more deserving, more acknowledged. And you never knew other ways to make that happen. After a while the difference pales. Are u doing what you like or did u make urself like what u're doing? What difference does it make though, you no longer knew what u like. Did u ever know? You study, for its the only way you get paid. You get paid to live. You live for getting paid.

Study. Work. If there were neither, if there were no systems, no boundaries, what will you do? You dont have to study or work. In fact what if no one does....Will u fish all day? Will u swim all night? Will u live life any happier than of now? Will u be jaded with living as well? I think u shall. I think u will. I duno. Man I couldnt sleep monday night and watched Temptation Island on repeat. My fave show ever man. Although it doesnt make any moral sense to do what they do. Is tempting always to get tempted. Thats the show I wanna be at. Though I'd prolly get voted out as soon as I introduced myself. Ho ho.