To DiE... WiLL bE aN aWfuLLy BiG aDVeNTuRE

I wonder if people i knew who died are having an adventure now. Are they playing with clouds, flying with fairies, or merely reduced to dust, non-existence.

Computer has been down lately, adding so much to the bleakness and pissness of me and my roomie. Being plagued already with the problems of being an adult.....

Poor dull things...trapped by propriety, kowtowing to authority, tormented by feelings. Thats us, aint it?

Which part would u play, if ur life was a movie? Would u be the soldier who died while charging or would u be the hero who didn't seem to get fired at. Or would you be the one who took the shot for someone else. Maybe the question is irrelevant. How would we know what part we'd play. We play our part as it comes. But i'm quite certain... I would be the character who runs away even before the war begins.

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This is for u may!~! If u ever read this.....

~~~~ GrEaT eXpEcTaTiOnS ~~~~

"The unqualified truth is that when i loved Estella with the love of a man, I loved her simple becoz i found her irresistable. Once for all; I knew to my sorrow, often and often, if not always, that I loved her against reason, against promise, against peace, against hope, against happiness, against all discouragement that could be. Once for all; I loved her non the less because I knew it, and it had no more influence in restraining me, than if I had devoutly believed her to be human perfection.

It's blind devotion, unquestioning self-humiliation, utter submission, trust and belief against yourself and against the whole world, giving up of your whole heart and soul to the smitter."