E. sySteM. maDe. mE. aN. iNsOmNiaC

yeah thats me!~

Oh well. its what i become twice every year =) Din sleep till 3.30 yesterday!~ And I feel like a piece of lard now? aM so having cramps the entire day! =(

The tax paper was the most taxing and I Nearly died doing it. Gosh if i dun get at least a B for that...

then yea i guess i'll get a C

Tmr signals the end of all e pain and agony but its open book and i dun wanna study!!! Am THIS sick of studying!!!!! SICK!!!!!!!!!! =( Pardon my trend of thoughts but why do we have to study to this extreme? Just so that our quality of life gets seriously distorted?!~?! Oh man studying takes a toll on my sleeping, my appetite, my social life, my mental well-being, my entire existence!!!!! We have to go back to when learning was learning. There's such a big gap between learning and studying now, they need to revamp the system! =(

To what? ARghhhhh.... ever since man had schools....did the quality of our lives really improve? Being educated doesnt mean one becomes a better person does it? It did make our lives better to a large extent but it has reached its threshold and it's backlashing!!!! In fact the more educated i get the more empty i feel!~I'm just like an information eating machine! And they are not even digested properly! Coz i refuse to digest what i dun need! Ans then in the exams i puke it out! I regurgitate! And then i get an A for it! And then everyone will think i am smart! And so will those ignorant.pain.in.the.ass aunties who praises me on how intelligent i am!! When i am so not.

After so much studying i've learnt nothing! Nothing that i particularly think helps to improve my life!~ Well...so u'd say that if i dun study i wouldnt have a job...but c having a job isnt even in my agenda of quality living!!!! Ok i love school really...the friends and activities...i even wanna teach...am not against the idea of educational institutes but i say we rip exams off the package man. Experience orientated, learning-orientated, blah-orientated... whatever just not exam-orientated!!!....dun say i dun give credit where credits due....exams do shape character...I mean... u c the disciplined kids and the bo-chap kids...but then again the bo-chap kids mite turn out to be better beings than those nerdy-i-need-to-get-that-A kids. Wonder if anyone out there loves the system. If i ever become a teacher how do i become an advocate for the system!~?! Horror.

Hmm....wei i dunno what u will say to this but i'm gonna make u read this.
I know immediately after i write and post it i'm gonna think its lame but wth this is my trend of thoughts for now.

And if u are not sympathetic with me yet i think u can just @#@%^@#%!