madness

Do u know that the likelihood of you suffering from mental illness is about three times as high if ur an artist? Poets, Writers, Painters, Architectures... You simply can't do a good job if u're not mad.

I wish I'd stop trying to be mad.

Madness: Insane, foolish, frenzied, infatuated.

No kidding. The oxford dictionary defines madness as that. Go easy on the last one won't you.
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I was gonna write a happy entry. About my day and stuff. You know. I dunno. Yesterday I had this strange bout of happiness wash over me during the last few minutes of Yoga. I had this urge to like hit someone with it. Tell someone I was happy, that I was feeling good. Ofcoz the feeling din last long enuff for me to do sth about it. Then again...what the fuck can I do abt it? I cant go hey-I-am-suddenly-happy to you. You dun really care a hoot.

Bottomline is, I realize that all you need is to acknowledge and believe that good things always happen in life. That being depressed is just one transient state that somehow elevates the next state of happiness u're gonna get. So you need to live for the next happy moment, and trust with all ur heart that it'll come. No matter what.

As if u din know that already. o....k.

One more thing. I realized that for the first time this year, I dun have a resolution relating to a miraculous weight loss.

If you really think about it, at the end of the day, you wanna change or improve things that matter. Not the things that matter NOW, coz they dun mean a shit later. Just before you die and go to heaven(hopefully) to meet the big guy, what matters to you? What makes a good life, to you? Right now I'd think its experiencing things, you know, going new places, having a passion for something, loving someone without reservations, maybe even meeting Brad Pitt. So it really doesnt matter, at the end of it, whether I was thin or fat. Thin people die, fat people die. Just wanna die happy. Ok. I dunno man. For whatever reason you might wanna die thin so that you look better. Ok whatever. Just bloody change ur resolution from losing weight to living healthy.

Night guys.