track back

renunciation - the act or practice of ascetic self-denial

Good morrow, good evening and good night! =)

I had a bad night. You? Well I dreamt that I've got fangs for teeth and couldnt close my mouth. Then flashbacks. Not so much of the things that happened but of the way I felt. Horrible isnt it?

O. Avoid calling me on my cell...well it kinda fell into a lump of poo so it isn't working at all. Am using this ancient one that is really kinda embarassing to take out. Yea. My lump of poo. =)

You ever met someone who shows so much resilience it puts u to shame? The way she picks herself up after every misfortune. The way she puts herself into your shoes and comforts u even though she's in a worse position? The way she tells u life's too short to be unhappy. The way she smiles like she means it?

I have.

**
"Thoughts are invisible clouds that go out and gather up results for us. They determine what we reap."

I hate it when you think them but I can't correct your thoughts for you.

I told a white lie to protect myself from you. Forgive me.

**
I asked my bro to come cycle with me last morning.

"Who is it you're going with? Will she make me feel that my life's worth living?"

"Michelle. No."

I'm not short changing Mich.

I forgot to ask him whether his life is not worth living.

**
I suddenly feel kinda repressed. Kinda incomplete. Can't put my finger into it.

I was at Bible study last thursday. The guest speaker din quite do it for me. When he shouted those words something inside of me felt like crying. Maybe I was scared. Maybe water retention. But then I think I saw Adel tear and I think - what a sweet release.

Send me someone so cool it hurts.