If LiFe'S tHe dIseAsE ThaN LOvE's ThE cUrE

I have all these disturbing thoughts I wanted to share but when I'm here I dont wanna type it. When I'm here I feel like I need to tell u the good stuff. Sieve out all the shit. =) You dun want or need to hear them. Well, first up, just as I was holding back the need to puke on my bus ride home, Adel tells me abt this surprise gift that's gonna come for me anytime soon. =) Ronald's driving it here. Awesome shit. Del, I am starting to wonder if its a watermelon. *wink wink*

SO..in another part of ur world, M and V breaks up. V gets attached. I dunno. Its melodramatic. The most dramatic event that ever happened to me was...was...nothing. You're upset. But it sucks to call and then hear u tell me you dun need me. I'm not good with this being there shit.

I'm staying away from msn for a week. Adel will pay me 30 cents if it happens. I forced her to do it. I dun wanna feed on the words said out of boredom. Each one questing for sth more in another's weariness. I'm not bored. Aint doing me good. I'm getting it back. I'm getting perceptive, concrete, riveting words in my head. I'm hearing from authors.

I spent the morning selecting, orchestrating, decorating some shit for u. Boy I hope u like it.

My brother and I are gonna show some TLC to this stray white cat that has been staying along the stairways for abt a week now. I was talking to him abt it. I think its sick. Maybe its gonna die. My brother love animals. Thats y sometimes I love him. He used my $30 taka voucher I got for my b-day to buy some gundam model shit. But I'm gonna let it go. =) I'm for models. They help to develop thinking skills. Plus, I'm for gundam.

OK. So the cat wasnt in really in need of TLC. We left the milk and fishes there, and ran away for fear that it'd find out where we stay and keep bugging us. Ha. Was fun. Conditional love. Thats what it is nowadays.

You ever hated urself for disliking someone? There need to be no reason. I just don't like you. I'm judgemental. I'm severely biased.

The stupid intimidating nurse from NTU's dental clinic called again! ARGH. I AM SCARED LIKE PEE FOR THE EXTRACTION BUT I AM NOT GONNA BACK OUT U IDIOT! STOP CALLING ME TO ASK IF I AM COMING! MORON! I wish all her teeth falls on her. Ok ok I take that back. She is already ugly as she is. Needs teeth.

May I missed u tdy! I know! I'm saying this the third time since u left - Needy Zann. Absence so makes the heart grow fonder eh? Will do swimming when u come back, to counter that I-have-Jules-and-I'm-so-blessed-that-all-I-did-was-fed effect. =P

I'd rather be alone, then to feel lonely when I'm with you.