Moving

Here.

For now

God I'm upset.

It's even worse when I cannot tell u why.

I've just engaged in a total of 3 types of therapy.

1) Retail. I went to town and went crazy. Two pairs of shoes, mango turquoise hot dress who shall wait patiently for an occassion to be worn, mango brolly....

2) Words. I went to the library and borrowed the books that I used to love to read. Man. Tell me again why I'm always moving back?

3) Food. I ate 2 ice cream cones yesterday. One today. Stuffed myself with mint chocolates and nougats and Indian cusine (courtesy of leenu)

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Am upset.

Damn.

Met up with crescent chums on sunday. Leenu's place.

"Babe, am gonna make my grand appearance at house soon man. Remember to open the door when I knock !"

"Babe the red carpet has been laid."

"Alrighty, any moment now! "

Was her bro's 18th birthday. About 30 of his friends came. Among which 3 were hot. Damn I am bloody 22. The dinner lasted from 7 till 11 though. I forgot how many darn courses they served but shit you! Stomach has been blown to horrendous proportions.

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Monday I met chew. I drove her, along with tada, my dad, to east coast. Perfect ride I would say. Chew can vouch for me when I say that the only person hindering my driving capabilities is tada, my dad. Chew found it hilarous ofcoz, the way he flings his hands uncontrollably and seemingly wildly at me when his point was merely to make me, TURN LEFT. I swear I am gonna steal the car one of these days and make the roads go wild. And ofcoz to watch u go mad.

Explain to me why we need graduation ceremonies?

Explain to me again why I don't feel right.

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oh god. Am gonna perform the second last therapy.

doctor doctor
I'd like to be able to call in sick today
Won't u do me a favour
Arrange for Mr sun to be delayed
I don't care for the rest
They can go ahead and play dead
There's just nothing for me to wake up to today

Just a girl

I was packing my stuff when I came across a scrap paper with these words on it. Then I recalled that one morning when I woke up with the sweetest dream ever. I was a gurl. And he was a boy. And thats pretty much all there was to it. Sometimes I think u sent me these dreams and make me feel the way I feel in it...just so I will never forget to believe.

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I'm in love with the boy in my dreams
He's everything I made him out to be
He talks, he walks, he flirts with mischief
Everything about him makes my heart flutter at such speed

Nothing at all I spoke in the dream
I just sat beside him and gladly submit
In fact the entire world in the dream was him
In fact it must have lasted for merely a few minutes

oh
Such bliss

I opened my eyes and woke up to you beside me
The man I promised to spent my life with
Deviod of youth, innocence, and that shyness from within,
I turn my back, close my eyes,
And begged to dream

I'm just a girl
Bring me
The boy from my dreams

You Are A Walnut Tree

You are strange and full of contrasts... the oddball of your group. You are unrelenting and you have unlimited ambition. Not always liked but always admired, you are more infamous than famous. You are aggressive and spontaneous, and your reactions are often unexpected. A jealous and passionate person, you are difficult in romantic relationships.

What is Your Celtic Horoscope?

K R I S P Y K R E M E

No. of Krispy kreme Doughnuts bought back from sdyney : 12
No. of krispy Kreme Doughnuts left : 0



Hoho. Hey hey. Hello hello. =) Back! I'm back. Yea. Whats up?

How r u? I find the need to ask u that before I rattle about myself and trip. Lest I missed out a big event in ur days while I was gone. So shoot. How were u?

Good? Everything's like slow motion now. Suddenly. Cept for weight ofcoz. It has undeniably, somewhat helplessly, very tragically... escalated.

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Friday 1st July 2005

I've become so accustomed to long bus rides.. I've somehow mastered the ability to fall in and out of sleep within a minute. Its like Zzzzzzzz then u go down the bus to take pictures with the koalas and kangaBoohoos and wombats and the great ocean and what not and then u go up again and doze off and sprain ur neck while doing it. Its disappointing but after a while I don't really see the point of taking the buildings and lanscape and street names with me. No need for pictures to solidify their beauty. Everytime u snap a shot its as though u oughta feel guilty. Guilty for reducing their magnificant existence to a picture, just so u have a piece of it.

Brrrr....its cold as fuck. When the rain falls and the wind blows it feels like ur head's gonna be blown empty.

Oooo there's that couple again. We see them wherever we go its almost errie. Its totally sweet though. Couples travelling together. When u're cold u hug each other. U hold hands. I get pissingly jealous but yeah, always reassuring to see affectionate displays of love.



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Tuesday 28th June 2005 -- Mt Buller


When I look at you its like christmas on the beach. When you talk to me I feel a million zillion stars staring right at me. But you left so suddenly I didn't really have the chance to invest in your bliss. I still really hate you for it.

One.

When we speak you sweep me off my feet. If words were all you have I'd marry you nonetheless. You're too good looking to be shy about things. Yet it was your self depreciating that turned it on for me. You were never really here with me. Somewhere else I knew you'd rather be. And I'd rather let you go than be second on your list.

Two.

I knew the first time I met you that we'd never be. But I'll pursue you just coz you didn't care as much as I did. You have the tendency to stop in the middle of your speech. You found it difficult to just say what you really mean. You're the kind of person who always gets it right the first time. I hated you for it. You'd let me know that you love me. I don't know how you lie so convincingly.

Three.

Wombats. They have a rather peculiar mating habit. They mate, leave their partners and never see them again in their entire lifetime.

Now isn't that sweet.


Thats Bob the snowman. That little boy came over and stammered to us about wanting to build a snowman with us and all....=)In the end we let him and his mum take a pic with our Bob.