Delayed happiness

Forget

1. That you haven't brush my teeth since yest morning (forgot to bring brush to adel when stayed over). My gawd that is 31 hours. (!!!!!!)
2. That you're actually suppose to search SGX for some company who did reverse acquisition right now
3. That you have to present to this intimidating tutor on thursday who has magical powers to turn pple into stone

Remember

1. That u have the best group mates ever and they shall not let u turn into stone. Plus group mates are exceptionally smart. Plus who bloody fucking care about a 2 hour tutorial!~??!~ Everyone is gonna walk out of the room and then move on with their lives~!~ man. U am such a nut.
2. That ur mum bought bird nest for me
3. That ur dad finally bought the hand weights u've have been bugging him about
4. That Mich is finally absolutely happy with herself although V is very miserable
5. That the Chinese New Year is coming and u have holidays
6. That u have a date this saturday with Johnny Depp
7. That u have another date this friday with May so that u shall feel guilty about her books that u've so conveniently lost

I have been delaying happiness. There havent been smilely faces on my calender for about two weeks. Yeah I know. I dunno why we waste time by being unhappy. I dunno why we always tell ourselves to be happy only after we've crossed that hurdle. And I really dunno when we'll finally get it. That they are just gonna keep coming. And that they're just gonna get higher and higher.

I'm learning to call for help when I need it. Even though sometimes I think that no one can help me besides myself. But I'm gonna have a little faith now. You're my friend for a reason. And I should let u be. Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough.

"Your love.. falls as the morning dew
Sweeps me away
Till I... am lost in you"

Jo, I so love this song. If you have the CD you must so lend it to me. =P

Finding Forrester

What are u made of?

I say maybe
Sugar and spice
and everything nice

No I've got marshmallows for brains
and a heart full of lies

I've got words stuck between my teeth
and anger surging down my spine
Too much air in my lungs
and too much desire in my eyes

I say maybe
Maybe I really wanna be made of ice

fuckmyday

I dreamt of half filled swimming pools, with spiders dangling by it's circumference.
I feel so small so incompetent so powerless so whatever, I wonder how is it that you've yet to let me disappear. I'm begging you to make me invisible. Maybe once per week. How abt that?

I ask you first to stay with me only if ur day died in a mess. You know, blood spurting all over and stuff. I ask u further to forgive me for what u're abt to read. I swear I dun usually do this. It'd probably be one of those entries I delete in time to come. I still have to say it though. Otherwise the stupidity won't hit me. And I'll suffer internal bleeding.

I'm just under this thing. I dunno its manifestations. It's coming all over. It's blooming multiplying proliferating in my brain. It's nonchalence perturbs me. And each time it hits, sth in head explodes. Each task becomes harder. Heavier. The left-overs from the explosions. Its like this misty dark dirty flithy grey clouds hanging hovering all over. Its not a sponge no more. Brain. Cloud. Rain. Vapour. Vapour. The pressure.

And your words. Why did u have to say so many? They were swallowed by the air particles, I didnt get any. It's like I suddenly decided to go deaf. I catch fragments of ur speech as I watch the shapes form, come out from between your lips. No sounds. I swear. There was no sound!

And you. You stupid Mcflurry shit. You make me sick. Oreo warriors roam about in my stomach carrying pointy weapons. Must as well drop me the bomb. Puke. I need to puke.

Why did you have to do her poems? I've heard them already. I walk out of your class, just like how Plath screams through her poems. Fuck her for wanting so much to die. Why did she have to think of dying as her art. I don't think you will ever smile at me again.

And I dont get it. Why the fuck I can't deal with simple little things. Why I have to do marshmallows for brains.

I just wanna be angry with the world
I just wanna dismiss my existence
Brush away those banal obligations
Then you can bask in my disappearence

O dont even say it.

Fuck ice cream.

See what you want to see

Love to faults is always blind,
Always is to joy inclined,
Lawless, winged, and unconfined,
And breaks all chains from every mind.

William Blake 1791

Surfacing

He didn't love me, it was just an idea of himself he loved and he wanted someone to join him, anyone would do. I didn't matter so I didn't have to care.

I woke up at 8.30 to watch 7th heaven this morning. Did u know what Aaron carter is in it? He's dating Ruthy. Its time I had a doze of that goodness.

Its time I call my best friend. Its time I let her talk me to it. Being good.

If someone stops you in the middle of the tracks while u were running and panting...presumably asking for directions, would you stop? I didn't. I just kept on running. I felt like once I stopped everything'd be ruined.

I watched the Basketball Diaries tdy. For Leo ofcoz. I've been wanting to get my hands on it for a while. And now that I finally did...it din mean that much to me. Jim Carroll's story...I wonder if it was as painful for Leo to act it as it was for me to merely watch it. I din like it. I dun drug. Its too far for me to get it. But I hope his book is better than that. Its your fave right?

I watched Shall we dance on saturday. With Ling, after we went cycling and presented ourselves to the sun. She refused to do frivolous Alfie with me. Despite my slient protests I think I liked the movie. Especially this thing that Susan Sarandon said. The reason why people got married. You get married because you don't want your life to go unnoticed. You want a witness to your life. Share your days..your home...your work...your mornings, days, and nights. You want a witness. I guess after a while it doesnt have to be love....I dunno. Well J Lo's body oh so rocked in the show. I feel like dancing after watching it. We all should learn to dance. Really. You know how guys can be classified into like a boob's-man, or a leg's-man, or maybe a butt's-man...I think I'm a word's-gurl. Just give me the right words and I'll be your witness.

Vinod tells me that if someone your talking to gets to your nerves, all you gotta do is to picture that person naked. N a k e d. I dunno abt that though. I havent tried it. Its difficult, to picture my gurls naked. I mean....it doesnt do it for me. Unless ur J Lo maybe.

The person who can't bloody fix the leaking tap tells me that when I go to work, I need to pay him one third of all the expenses that he has spent for the family. The house, the car, the foodstuff, my study fees...he says its okay for the furniture. I dont have to pay for the furniture. I close my eyes. I close my ears. I picture you being pinned to the wall. I picture you screaming for help.

Its all good now. Its all good. I'm gonna be good now. Thank you very much.

twenty-one

You're 21
You gotta stop acting like u've got the entire world on your shoulders

You gotta stop reaching in (there's really not much inside)
And start reaching out

You gotta dance like you don't care if they're watching
You gotta nod your head to the drum beats
like you dont mind if it falls and rolls over
You gotta speak up and scream
stop being like a wimp
You gotta work that body
like you're everybody's somebody
You gotta go ahead and say you love somebody
like you actually know what it means

You're 21
You've got to live
like you've got the entire world under ur feet
like the heaven's over you watching

You're 21
You just have to live like it

I'm good

Pink ikea stool. Pink Piglet pen holder. Well, pink almost everything. A vase of dried flowers. 3 pairs of jeans hung behind the door. Lots of utensils. Weighing machine. Skipping rope. Toaster. Peanut butter. Nutella. Precious moments snowglobe. Small mickey mouse figurine. The incredibles pillow. Paperback novels. =P Everything is pretty, sweet and nice. Exactly like how a gurl's room should be. They say a person's room tells u about the kind of person someone is. Seirye, I quite love typing on your key board. Hope u don't feel like I've intruded on your privacy. Kinda hope u will not read this. Love your room. =P

I think I miss hall a little. The serenity of it. The idea of being away from home and with friends. The idea of being a little bit more independent. I dont miss sleeping late that much though. And I'm not crazy abt the shuttle bus either.

So I went for lit lecture tdy. And I discovered some sad truths.

1. Women are more prone to insanity. In fact the word hysteria basically stems from the word Womb. So literally speaking, only women can get hysteric.

2. I think I might be suffering from what you call Neurasthenia. Whoooo

3. The great Darwin thought of women as puppies. Their sole purpose being to give birth, stay pretty and polite.

4. Freud postulates that women suffer from Penis envy. He thinks the reason why women are more prone to mental illness and emotional instability is because they do not own a penis.

5. (Serene I hope u see this) Anthony Burgess thinks that he cannot take a woman's writings seriously. He gains no pleasure from serious reading that lacks a strong male thrust.

6. My tutor is married. With a 4 year old kid.

Ok I cant type anymore or I'd be late for tutorial. Have a nice week, won't ya.

Oh and Bi, this one is for ya

"Love … is a quicksilver word; though you see plainly where it is, you have only to put your finger on it to find that it is not there but someplace else."

--Morton Hunt.

Get this.

I've done this before
And I know how it goes
I'm suppose to be interested
In everything about you

I've been there before
My ears I lend to you
I'm suppose to be omniscient
Yet you don't dare do my point of view

Never said it before
Coz if I did it'd break you
That Tiny Whinny Little Pretty Angel in you

Oh Hush .

Q-U-A-R-A-N-T-I-N-E

1. Duo Banana & Chocolate Flavoured Spread
2. Sunshine Garlic Wholemeal Bread
3. Lite 99% fat free mixed fruit yogurt
4. 5 green apples
5. Milk

That I bought.

The Aviator wins Gloden Globe for best motion pic and Leo won the best actor!~

This I watched!~

It was really kinda spontaneous. I was supposed to date the GurL-whO-smokeS-cigarettes-for-breakfast after sch tdy but she got puking sick so there went my date. So, my fyp group mate and I both impromptu confessed our adoration for DiCaprio on our way home and started naming all his movies. We bemoaned abt the fact that no one wants to watch his show with us. Shame on u if you are anti-leo. And then we went why dont we catch it now!?~?!

Very happy abt having friends who do spur-of-the-moment stuff. And Ni, I liked the movie. I mean, ok, if werent for Leo maybe it wouldnt be so. And I do feel most regretful abt his inability to age. But Hughes life was facinating. So were his idiosyncrasies. (Why does the word end with sth that sounds like crazy?) So was Leo. So were the women. So are planes. So is flying. Ok. Am digressing. So I dunno why u din like it. Maybe the movie was so real its a little over bearing. A little frightening even. I wonder if my tutor will bring it up in his lecture. I wonder if it constitutes madness in a flim. I wonder if Hughes really really loved Katherine Hepburn. I wonder if she really really had to leave him. ANyhow. Go watch the movie and tell me only if u liked it.

So, I started sth. I'm putting smilely faces on my calender boxes if i thought my day was happy. And I realised that more than half of the time, it usually gets a smilely. It forces me to think of the day as a whole, it stops me from becoming preoccupied with moments. I mean your day can so bloody suck at most moments... and then perhaps the bus driver smiled at u, some stranger helped you press the lift button, you gave up your seat for a stranger, someone left u 10 voice mails, you read sth cool online, you get a letter, you smell some awesome looking flowers, you went to swim, you watched a movie, you wrote a poem, you watched the birds fly, you spoke a sentence to your mum without screaming, you ate ice cream, you did a joke, you went cycling, you got a call from a friend, u laughed at sth, you saw someone breath-taking, you heard a nice song....anything. Something. That makes ur day worth it.

Enuff said.

ANyway. Did u watch Collateral Ni? Coz that was one of my favourites last year and most bodies din like it. OOO did u watch The Dreamers? Coz I bet u'd love that one. Incest. A little.

a l l a w h s i d

I have been listening to them. And I reaslied u were the one who introduced me to them. And its funny now how I allowed myself to connect with a stranger. Now you don't even know it was me. Uhuh. Am never talking to strangers again.

"She was exasperated when he keeps distubing her while she is sleeping."

That was the sentence my tutee formed for me. Now that I typed it in here it doesnt look too bad. I mean. I was damn pissed with her yesterday. I blew my top. Everything about her is wrong. Her speeelling, her tenses, her floppy sentences, her math, her gargantuan handwriting, her flippant attitude, her overly clingy dog, her name. Her name. Which is actually the same as my chinese name. Gawd...Its so wrong that I dont have the confidence or maybe desire to make it right. She is exasperating.

She was exasperated as he kept disturbing her when she was asleep. Ok. that my brother typed.
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My sunday was kinda lonely. In fact my entire weekend was. I was nursing my nose. Its funny how being at home with family can be lonely. Like strangers in proximity. Everything is funny.

I wanted to ride my bike down at the park. And then I realised...that my Dad did sth real smart to the tires when he was pumping them. So they couldnt move no more. The more u pump them the more air comes out. Which is cool. He was never a fixer anyway. So I had to take the red bike...which is also the bike that havent been used in abt a year, which is also the bike that make loud rusty noises like some choo choo train when I rode it for an hour. And I was half hoping that when I was going real fast the speed would kinda cause the entire bike to break into pieces. Bringing me along with it. Maybe I was hoping I could accelerate and crash into some wall like Harry Potter, and be transported to a magical world.

I'm reading Margaret Atwood's Surfacing. And I love the book really. It makes me feel more lonely than I already am. Which is perfectly cool if u think abt it. Coz it means that you've yet epitomize loneliness. She says "Perhaps its not only his body I like, perhaps it's his failure; that also has a kind of purity."

Sometimes I deprecate your condescending charm.
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Chew's command of the language definitely deteriorated.

"I was so peace and time alone really hard." Muah ahahaha she cracks me up and she doesnt even know it. =)

She said it was a typo. WArtaver. She tells me that her apartment mates are too happening and she doesnt have her quiet time. They are gregarious. Talks too much. Something like me. Mmmmm. Excellent.

I dunno if I should watch Aviator. Adel said it sucks. I need a better opinion. Less biased one. I am kinda excited. I've already got a date to see
Johnny
Finding
In
Depp
Neverland

Like the devil sick of sin, Make me stop feeling

My tutor made me a Guest User for that module that I couldnt take. =) Happy. Am bloody privileged. I get to read it without having to do exams. I nearly skipped his lecture yesterday, abt this short story - some guy woke up and discovered that he had turned into a beetle. Yea. Beeee-turl. I did that story before in one of my GEs and the female tutor just didnt make me think the story made any sense. Ofcoz I'm glad I went. He has all the answers to my questions. OK no, he doesnt. But yet he does. He'd tell me there are no answers and then he'd awe me with his perspective. I wish u had a perspective.

Some author said that the worse thing to be in this world is to be sensitive. To be sensitive. To be sensitive...

And you. You couldnt care less.

How many times can you listen to a song before it loses its meaning for you?
I get the strangest feeling that when you finally know me you'd go away
But ofcoz maybe you'd like to re-know me again someday
When you think I might give you meaning again
So I'd stand here and I'll wait for you with the back of my head
Wait for you to wish to hear me again

My nose is running again. And while it's gaining speed it leaves me languid. And trust me its doing a marathon. It has a good stamina. I used to always track back. What did I actually put in mouth that made body sick? But I get sick so easily now no matter what I eat. Maybe sometimes I really wanna be sick. Mind sick = body sick. I'm thinking maybe its the over indulging. Maybe its me doing ice-cream for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Ice cream makes me happy.

I get a letter from my junior from crescent. She's now in UK studying. In it was a stone she picked up from France.

I'm asking you, what are the five things worth living for in your life? Those five things that will give u the strength to wanna live again when all you want is to die. You said it must be Sex and Booze. And you, you said Incubus. Friends? Friends. My bro said for him it'd be a beautiful woman. You really can't judge him on that. He's 15.

My brother. Letters? Maybe letters.

Its funny, the level of connection u feel with someone through letters. You make a difference when you choose to sit down and pen your thoughts with me in your mind. Thats special. You make me feel special. Maybe I dont wanna do talking any more. And I wonder how I can no longer tell u stuff.

I dont get how people can stop writing in their lives. Maybe one day I'd know. When I couldnt care less. But arent u worried? That today dies as soon as we vacate it. That everything beautiful that happened to you or will ever happen to you will die as well. Why don't you write them down to make them stay? Why dont u write them down to remember how your yesterdays died?

Gawd...I need to practice reticence. I've got too much to say.

Hi mich

Hey. Dun ask me why there's 2 entries a day
I find myself suddenly having alot to say
Oh you know what the sun came out today and I went out to play
You know, before he even decides to take it away

And I went to swim in the middle pool
And then discovered that my swim suit is really kinda loose
And then with goggles on my eyes
I watch and learn, the clouds
moving like they've got nothing on their minds

And then I take my time and hold my breathe
Stay stagnant, pretend
like I'm actually not there
Marvel at the curly whirly lines
that the sun draws beneath me
They look like DNA structures
waiting to transfigure me

And I was reading someone's blog
And the thought came to my mind
That we're so easily lost
At any moment, any time

And then he tells me sliently that its all okay
Coz there's really no you to lose anyway =)

PERTURBED PALPABLY

I am unduly anxious
Went jogging knowing I'd be late for tuition Its only half an hour I msg her and she says Oh okie I feel myself eating faster I tell him and he thinks I'm ridiculous

I am the teacher.

I am perpetually petulant
Malay neighbours engage in their ritualistic prayers You make me scream fuck you when you wet my slippers

Its not as if I only had one slipper.

I am unjustifiably defensive
You made a noise when I attempted to tune that radio on your car You obviously don't trust that I know what I'm doing You're so scared of seeing me make mistakes I'll make them coz you don't want me to I hope that makes you happy

It doesnt make me.

We over give
You stopped us in our tracks We gave it to you so u'd shut up And we'd all feel better And then you took the money and you said

Is That All?

Z a n n

My fellow tutorial mate tells me that in German, my name means TOOTH . I mean... how neat it that huh? =P Tooth I'm glad it doesn't mean ass or sth. Well maybe urs does. He also asked me how I got my name. Well, when I was in Primary six, my best group of friends wanted to come up with a christian name for me, and they added Zoe and Fann together and they got ZANN. Perfect.

I'm listening to lush 99.5fm and I think its very fantastic!~ Its sensual, sexy and smooth!~ In their own words. (And no Adel, they DON'T play an bu neh neh songs! Ha. But that was funny la)

You know, my brother tells me that his class is nerdy. Like everyone doesnt rush to go for recess. Instead, they do their math during recess. And that makes whoever that leaves for food --- guilty. And he says he wanna transfer and SHINE in some other lousier class. And I asked him, if he doesnt shine, what happens to him? And he said he's like a SHADOW!~ Muah haha. I thought that was funny, coz obviously I was thinking along the lines of maybe flickering and such...Muah haha. Yeah its kinda unfortunate really, coz the first 80 students are streamed into the top 2 classes, and his school position is an auspicious 80. =) Which means, yeah I think u know what it means. My poor bro is so gonna bottom his class. Or not.

I'm suddenly delirious. The Chinese New Year is gonna come man. And come on! Yay!~ Yay!~ Hip Hip Hurray!~ I can play with my little cousin, well not so little no more. Basketball made her about 172 tall. Damn. All the new year goodies!!! Pine apple tarts!~ Yay! Btw I know how to make them! yay! But I wont. =) Lazy.

yay!

Ok. Sorry. Yeah so ling voice mails me and tells me how good her intern at Jurong island is coming along. Finally one person is happy and upbeat abt her life eh. I mean...I've been telling u how depressed my frens are. But then again Ling is always positive. I wonder if its the cause and effect thing. Sometimes she is so sickingly happy I'm green.

I was watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S on tape (yea I used to tape all the episodes) and I so awfully miss them! Man. Joey!!!! But I think his new sitcom is gonna be showing. So that gives me less reason to whine but JOEY!!! ok. I also miss Ally alot. Am gonna buy the VCDs so that I can watch them when I'm old and retired and grandma-ish.

Anyhow, Cheryl asks me a few nights ago what I do believe in. It seems that I don't believe in alot of things...its like asking pple what they wanna do with their lives. Most times I dunno what I believe in. I forgot to ask her to define "believe in". Anyhow, right now these are the things I believe in.

1. I believe in Yoga. (the good it does to ur body)
2. I believe in my mum. (She keeps her promises. She's the most responsible person I know. And I really can't believe I'm saying this.)
3. I believe in the Sun. (It gives light everyday without fail. So how can I not believe in it)
4. I believe in Johnny Depp. (I adore him. So I believe everything he says.)
5. I believe in knowledge.

What a boring list. I wish I could tell u I believe in angels and magic, and love, and Santa Claus and what nots. BUt aye, I'm an unhealthly sceptic? What do you believe in? I always think that there's no point believing in something and then have in refuted in later parts of your life. But then again, somethings can only happen when u believe. Ok, that sounds strangely familar...Oh....Prince of Egypt. There can be miracles....when u believe........

Honoring the policy of truth

I dunno what it is and I dunno what it means
I dunno how it feels and I dunno if its real
I dunno if you care and I dun care if you dont
But I think I love you
And I was just wondering if you would like to love me too

Emotions

Dont let it get to ur head.

I admit I write them all the time coz I'm intrigued by the intensity of it that one can feel sometimes. Yet most of my emotions are extrapolated from you.

I recognize that it misleds. I recognize that its ephemeral. But I dun recognize when its real and when its not.

Happy Little Things:

1. Having Sharon buy me two ear-rings to add to my collection. (yes, have decided to start a collection.)

2. Having Mich leave me 8 voice mails.

3. Having cute butch come over to ask me to do survey.

4. Having donated $2 to some waterfall childrens thingie.

5. Having bro bug me watch his new infatuation --- new anime Hellsing, with him.

6. Having ice-cream uncle give me one extra bread coz I'm undeniably cute.


"You're magic. And if the magic ever leaves, remember this, you know how to make your own. "

madness

Do u know that the likelihood of you suffering from mental illness is about three times as high if ur an artist? Poets, Writers, Painters, Architectures... You simply can't do a good job if u're not mad.

I wish I'd stop trying to be mad.

Madness: Insane, foolish, frenzied, infatuated.

No kidding. The oxford dictionary defines madness as that. Go easy on the last one won't you.
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I was gonna write a happy entry. About my day and stuff. You know. I dunno. Yesterday I had this strange bout of happiness wash over me during the last few minutes of Yoga. I had this urge to like hit someone with it. Tell someone I was happy, that I was feeling good. Ofcoz the feeling din last long enuff for me to do sth about it. Then again...what the fuck can I do abt it? I cant go hey-I-am-suddenly-happy to you. You dun really care a hoot.

Bottomline is, I realize that all you need is to acknowledge and believe that good things always happen in life. That being depressed is just one transient state that somehow elevates the next state of happiness u're gonna get. So you need to live for the next happy moment, and trust with all ur heart that it'll come. No matter what.

As if u din know that already. o....k.

One more thing. I realized that for the first time this year, I dun have a resolution relating to a miraculous weight loss.

If you really think about it, at the end of the day, you wanna change or improve things that matter. Not the things that matter NOW, coz they dun mean a shit later. Just before you die and go to heaven(hopefully) to meet the big guy, what matters to you? What makes a good life, to you? Right now I'd think its experiencing things, you know, going new places, having a passion for something, loving someone without reservations, maybe even meeting Brad Pitt. So it really doesnt matter, at the end of it, whether I was thin or fat. Thin people die, fat people die. Just wanna die happy. Ok. I dunno man. For whatever reason you might wanna die thin so that you look better. Ok whatever. Just bloody change ur resolution from losing weight to living healthy.

Night guys.

I will ...

Learn to take my time
Believe in my ability to fix anything
Stay busy. Don't hold my breathe for anybody or anything
Stay over at Adel's somemore and piss her parents off
Talk to my brother more
See the world as the world and not just one person
Watch more Jacky Wu variety shows and laugh at them (apparently after I typed this they decided not to bloody show it. Good job.)
Read good books and watch good movies
Listen to good music
Sing more
Reply Cheryl's mail efficiently
Adopt a Bo Chup attitude and let the big man take over
Be scared but be brave
Let go.

Tell me.

That night on X mas May called. She felt like talking to me. Flattering, really.

"I think you've become needy. You know, u're now number 3 on my Coolest friends list. You used to be on top of it. You need to do sth abt it."

I guess you get needy when u grow older. You need some sort of emotional attachment to someone. Something. For whatever reason. The need to be desired, and the desire to be needed.

Your friends get attached to some guy, gets both heart and head stolen. Becomes strangely devoted to performing wifely duties to perfection. She left u behind. She doesnt even realise. So u become ----- Needy.

She tells me I dont have time for her. She tells me I am always busy.

I forgot to tell her that I'm sorry.
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On saturday she tells me she broke up with Jules. Uhmmmm....
That she wish the tsunami hit us. mmmmm....
I told her I dont feel anything when I look at the pictures.
She laughs and says me too.

She tells me the high she gets from cigarettes last for abt 3 hours
That all her friends are either crooked or confused (No mich, she says she wont introduce them to you.)
That her new yr resolution is to forget Jules.

"You can't put it as that.You don't need to remind yourself the need to forget. You make resolutions abt urself. Not about others."

She tells me she wants to stop procrastinating. She needs to go get a job.
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I saw Veron that same day. I really didnt know what to say. I really couldnt ask her anything dumber. How r u? She asked me another dumb thing. How is mich? O u two dumb idiots. Its killing me, and its not even my business.
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Chew tells me she thinks Xiao wei is quite poor thing sometimes, coz her friend Zhiling is attached. She doesnt have as much company.

"What about me? You're attached."

"But you have many girl friends what!"

"Yeah..I do."
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My bro tells me he met someone real interesting online. The way he speaks intrigues him.

"It's a he?"

"Uhuh."

For a moment I thought he was gonna reveal that he's gay.

"He has a very cute sister and lots of cute friends."

"Oh...is that what it is...."

pleh

Siht naht reittihs yna teg tonnac ti.